Sorry, but I've been quiet lately. I haven't posted much. It is not for lack of interesting things happening. I could say I was too busy, or have too much homework and any number of things. Those things are true. The fact is, I just haven't felt like being myself for a while. I think I have actually been hiding.
Yeah, that's a bit odd. It would not surprise me if Cathy's recovery has caused me to subconsciously begin allowing things that bother me to surface.
In my life, I am reaching my limit. I'm concerned I will not finish remodeling the apartment to get it rented out for September. I have been struggling to keep up with cleaning up the apartment. School has started, and I think I have scheduled 110% of my time. I may be overbooked, and all of my appointments are showing up on time.
Part of my silence is the growing awareness that I am... corrupt. Perhaps I am only more aware of the depravity within all mankind. Nevertheless, I am aware of my failure as a human being. *sigh* Ah, well, now I'm just rambling. Hopefully, I am just really tired.
Sometimes we bite off more than we can chew...but that doesn't diminish our abilities or worth...we're still in this weak flesh. You do A LOT.
ReplyDeleteI heard a preacher recently say that condemnation is from the enemy (I know you know) and that it is a general message of "you are a failure, you fall short..." but that conviction is from the Lord and He specifically says, "Son, I don't want you to speak like that," or, "Son, go and apolgize for doing that."
If you need to cut some things out and realign your goals, you should. If it's the enemy, resist him and he will flee from you.
I know you knew you could count on me to give my two cents.... :)
I love you my friend!
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